it's not goodbye
mungkin kalian bakal ngira entry ini bakal cerita tentang sisa waktu gue di USA yang sangat sesuai dengan judul entry-nya but it's just not about it at all.
wednesday, May 8th 2013
Jam 4 pm gue lagi siap-siap karena ada jadwal nyanyi bareng group band impact at church, gue dapet sms dari arum dan isi smsnya ngasih tau gue salah satu member catorce RIZKA F MUAS telah berpulang ke Rahmattullah. i didnt know how to act when i get the news, berusaha keep it calm and just act normal. and then i told my host dad dan beliau bilang it's okay to be sad and feeling hurted.
i made it to church and did sing after church dijalan sebelum pulang my host mom, cody, matt and I stopped by Tiff's house buat ngambil Matt's spare clothes. while we were waiting my host mom and Tiff were talking and suddenly my host mom said "tell Tiff what happened to your bestfriend" trus gue mulai cerita dan 15 detik kemudian gue nangis. Ga bisa gue tahan lagi karena jujur gue gatau harus gimana, felt so bad karena gue ga bakal bisa ngeliat Rizka buat terakhir kali dan ga sempet buat nemenin dia selama dia dirawat dirumah sakit. i always believed that she's gonna be alright , she would get better , she is going to be there in the airport when i go back home, that thought really crushed me into pieces. Tiff huged me so tight and said it's okay to cry. dari saat itu sekitar pukul 8.30 pm until 11 pm i didnt stop crying.
Hunter was there, he was also in tears. ga lama dari itu reagan, dianna, callie, sierra, and brian came , gue nangis on reagan's shoulder for awhile, she was also in tears. i tried to call arum via skype but the connection just messed up at that time, akhirnya gue nelpon Tasha di Ashville, Tennessee. when she picked up gue makin kenceng nangis-nya, abis dengerin nasihat tasha gue mulai berhenti nangis and tiff went to sonic buat beli some coke for me.
right before tiff went to bed, D came karena dia harus kerja malem itu. so D and I were just sitting there on couch. well gue capek banget nangis lebih dari satu jam, he asked me am i doing better now and gave me long, big hug. and we just sat on the couch and snuggle. film pertama insidious karena gue pengen nonton film itu dari lama, after that kita nonton mr. bean's holiday, terus kita nonton LOL. gue ketiduran on your lap sampe sekitar jam 6 am, trus kita nonton limitless in the morning and gantian he fell asleep on my lap and Tiffany was just woke up when he was on my lap, that was awkward.
D and tyler bolos kuliah and stay at home with me. Hunter, matt, sierra and I bolos sekolah, tiff and callie bolos kerja dan kita semua just chilling out together. bought some donuts, cooked chicken rings and chicken dumpling and had movies marathon. the next night it was me and D again setelah dia pulang dari excercise. he finally let me watch P.S. I love you, i started crying and he just hold me tight without paying attention on the movie cause he hates it lol.
it's been a really tough time for me tapi beruntung gue punya keluarga dan temen yang keep on cheering me up ketika gue down and feel all alone, what D told me at least sekarang rizka udah ga sakit lagi, Allah S.W.T udah ngangkat penyakit rizka, it hurts alot like D punches my chest with that boxing gloves. tapi hikmah dari semua ini gue harus tetep bersyukur buat apa yang gue milikin disekitar gue dan Rizka you always be in my memory and catorce akan tetep jadi catorce walaupun jumlahnya tidak akan utuh 14.
thanks for reading, sorry its kinda details. :D
wednesday, May 8th 2013
Jam 4 pm gue lagi siap-siap karena ada jadwal nyanyi bareng group band impact at church, gue dapet sms dari arum dan isi smsnya ngasih tau gue salah satu member catorce RIZKA F MUAS telah berpulang ke Rahmattullah. i didnt know how to act when i get the news, berusaha keep it calm and just act normal. and then i told my host dad dan beliau bilang it's okay to be sad and feeling hurted.
i made it to church and did sing after church dijalan sebelum pulang my host mom, cody, matt and I stopped by Tiff's house buat ngambil Matt's spare clothes. while we were waiting my host mom and Tiff were talking and suddenly my host mom said "tell Tiff what happened to your bestfriend" trus gue mulai cerita dan 15 detik kemudian gue nangis. Ga bisa gue tahan lagi karena jujur gue gatau harus gimana, felt so bad karena gue ga bakal bisa ngeliat Rizka buat terakhir kali dan ga sempet buat nemenin dia selama dia dirawat dirumah sakit. i always believed that she's gonna be alright , she would get better , she is going to be there in the airport when i go back home, that thought really crushed me into pieces. Tiff huged me so tight and said it's okay to cry. dari saat itu sekitar pukul 8.30 pm until 11 pm i didnt stop crying.
Hunter was there, he was also in tears. ga lama dari itu reagan, dianna, callie, sierra, and brian came , gue nangis on reagan's shoulder for awhile, she was also in tears. i tried to call arum via skype but the connection just messed up at that time, akhirnya gue nelpon Tasha di Ashville, Tennessee. when she picked up gue makin kenceng nangis-nya, abis dengerin nasihat tasha gue mulai berhenti nangis and tiff went to sonic buat beli some coke for me.
right before tiff went to bed, D came karena dia harus kerja malem itu. so D and I were just sitting there on couch. well gue capek banget nangis lebih dari satu jam, he asked me am i doing better now and gave me long, big hug. and we just sat on the couch and snuggle. film pertama insidious karena gue pengen nonton film itu dari lama, after that kita nonton mr. bean's holiday, terus kita nonton LOL. gue ketiduran on your lap sampe sekitar jam 6 am, trus kita nonton limitless in the morning and gantian he fell asleep on my lap and Tiffany was just woke up when he was on my lap, that was awkward.
D and tyler bolos kuliah and stay at home with me. Hunter, matt, sierra and I bolos sekolah, tiff and callie bolos kerja dan kita semua just chilling out together. bought some donuts, cooked chicken rings and chicken dumpling and had movies marathon. the next night it was me and D again setelah dia pulang dari excercise. he finally let me watch P.S. I love you, i started crying and he just hold me tight without paying attention on the movie cause he hates it lol.
it's been a really tough time for me tapi beruntung gue punya keluarga dan temen yang keep on cheering me up ketika gue down and feel all alone, what D told me at least sekarang rizka udah ga sakit lagi, Allah S.W.T udah ngangkat penyakit rizka, it hurts alot like D punches my chest with that boxing gloves. tapi hikmah dari semua ini gue harus tetep bersyukur buat apa yang gue milikin disekitar gue dan Rizka you always be in my memory and catorce akan tetep jadi catorce walaupun jumlahnya tidak akan utuh 14.
thanks for reading, sorry its kinda details. :D
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